Finding Purpose, Self-Acceptance, and Self-Love: Discovering Your Life Theme

Each of us has a life theme, according to Daphneare not chosen or valued.
Rose Kingma, psychotherapist and author ofBlame yourself for not being included.
Loving Yourself: Four Steps to a Happier You. AEmotional Suffocation
life theme is a single psychological issue that is theDid you have an overprotective or overly
lesson plan for our lives.involved parent?
For some, life themes dictate personal mission orDid one of your parents treat you like a spouse?
lifes purpose. And no other factor is as importantWere your parents emotionally invasive?
as our life theme in coloring our self-esteem andIf you suffered from emotional suffocation, then
helping or hindering our ability to accept and loveyou may:
ourselves.Feel overwhelmed by a persons simple desire for
Life themes reflect our deepest wound, andcontact or intimacy.
many, including me, find their life purpose throughBe commitment phobic.
their life theme.Blame yourself when love eludes you.
All her life, my mother wanted a daughter.Deprivation
Pregnant at thirty-nine, she knew I was her lastDid you grow up in poverty? Did everyone
chance. You can imagine her disappointment whenaround you seem to have more than you?
the doctor announced I was a boy.Were you deprived of physical and emotional
From birth, I felt I was not okay as I was. Tocontact with your parents or siblings?
earn my parents love, I strived to be someoneWas your mother too busy, drunk, or exhausted
else. Now at fifty-one, I know my life purpose isto give you attention?
to help others stand in their power by becomingWas your father too absorbed in his work or the
the full expression of all they are. Inherent in myevening paper to talk to you?
mission is the belief that we are perfect just asIf your life theme is deprivation, you may:
we are.Tend to do without.
Life themes feed inner critics. My life theme ofHave a hard time receiving because you believe
rejection eggs on my inner critic, who taunts:you do not deserve it.
If people knew who you really were, they wouldFeel you should treat yourself better while blaming
not love you.yourself for doing just that.
You do not deserve to be included.If you are like me you identify with several of
If only you were (smarter, more in shape, orthese themes. My dad was a workaholic
accepting) people would like you.(abandonment) and my mother treated me as a
And this negative self-talk shapes my concept ofspouse (emotional suffocation). While these two
self.themes play out in my life, rejection takes the
According to Kingma, life themes fall into sixlead role. In my experience working with clients,
broad catagories:one central theme is almost always more
1. Neglectprevalent.
2. AbandonmentLooking over your history, can you determine
3. Abusewhat caused your life theme to become your
4. Rejectioncentral issue? Many clients feel disloyal when they
5. Emotional Suffocationblame their parents. They did the best they could,
6. Deprivationmany say. While your parents most likely did their
Let us look at each. See if you can identify yours.best, it was still not enough. None of us has ever
Neglectbeen loved perfectly. It is a fact of life.
Was television your babysitter?Loving yourself is the greatest work you will do in
Was your home always dirty and messy?this life. In a sense it is your only work, Kingma
Was your idea of a hone-cooked meal a TVwisely writes. Life themes negatively impact our
dinner that you had to microwave yourself?image of ourselves when we are not conscious of
Were you closer to your best friends parentsthem. Learning to work with our life themes builds
than your own?self-acceptance, self-esteem, and self-love.
If you were neglected, you may:I found these four questions particularly helpful in
Feel unworthy of the good things that life has toexploring my life theme. I hope you will find them
offer.useful, too.
Feel guilty every time you buy new clothes, haveOne: How has my life theme defined me? Put
a manicure, or take a vacation.another way, what roles am I playing because of
Beat yourself up for not giving yourself moremy life theme?
care and attention.I have taken on the roles of rebel, outsider, and
Abandonmentartist because of my life theme of rejection.
Did one of your parents die?Two: How does my life theme negatively impact
Were one or both parents workaholics and nevermy life?
at home?I wrote:
Did your dad or mother disappear after aI feel superior to others (often masking my low
divorce?self-esteem).
Were you emotionally abandoned?I become judgmental.
If abandonment is your issue, then you may:I look for what separates me from others
Not stick up for yourself.instead of what we share in common.
Find yourself in situations where you feelThree: What benefit(s) do I derive by holding on
abandoned.to this central theme?
Tend to be in relationships where others are notThis question delivered a big aha to me. I realized
particularly loyal.that if I do not belong, then I am special.
AbuseFour: What are two ways that I could benefit by
Were you sexually, physically, emotionally, orletting go of my central theme?
verbally abused?1. I could build a stronger, closer network of
Were you called too sensitive?friends.
Was one or both of your parents narcissistic?2. I could go to a party, enjoy myself, and not be
Were they too self-absorbed to give you theexhausted at the end of the evening.
attention you needed?Five: How could my life theme point me to my
If abuse is a life theme, then you may:purpose or mission?
Be super critical of yourself.For me, it was easy. For others, it is much harder.
Feel you do not deserve love.Still, all of us can find clues by examining our life
Allow others to treat you poorly.theme. One friend, a South Carolina couples
Be unkind to your body by overeating, formingtherapist, discovered that her theme of
addictions, or staying in abusive relationships.abandonment lead her to adopt the mission of
Rejectionhelping couples build safe, secure, stable, and sane
Did your parents wish you were never born? Didrelationships.
they wish you had been a boy instead of a girl, orLife themes become limiting beliefs when not
vice versa?examined, and limiting beliefs are the glass ceilings
Did you feel secondary to another sibling in yourthat prevent us from reaching for the stars.
family?When we identify our life themes we come closer
Were you ignored? Treated as if you did notto finding our mission or purpose in life. By
exist?working with our life themes, we become more
If you were rejected, you may:self-accepting and self-affirming. We lead happier
Be self-rejecting.and more meaningful lives.
Unconsciously seek out experiences where you